My addict mind in action

I couldn't control my thoughts and behaviors.
I was lying and hiding my behaviors.
I was in a fog, caught in my own fantasy world.
I would contemplate forbidden activities.
I was doing things that violated my values.
I felt drawn to acting out sexually and/or romantically.
I saw my behavior escalating.
I was never satisfied for long.
When I got what I thought I wanted, then I wanted more.
I was constantly thinking about the next fix.
I lived in fear.
I was isolating more from the people around me.
Emotionally I was up and down - feeling high, then depressed.
I was making excuses for my behaviors.
I was trying to rationalize what I was doing in my mind.
At times my behaviors seemed to come from no where.
Self knowledge, religious activities, and control wasn't enough.
I couldn't figure it out alone.

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Welcome to my relationship/sex addiction recovery blog for women. A place where I can write about my journey in recovery, and connect with others in recovery.